Welcome To My Life(Simple Plan)

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you’re bleeding

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy
But I’m not gonna be ok!

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don’t know what it’s like
What it’s like!

it's the induction camp today. somebody, whom i've forgotten who, commented that it's more of food rationing. i didn't have much for breakfast and they forbade us to have breaks. we were tortured to doing star jumps and pumpings. we were under the scorching sun the whole afternoon and i felt weak. i could only see patches of white in front of me and i felt my body trembled.

the school confiscated our wallets and handphones, deprived us of any freedom. some of them might have run around elsewhere, but the school gave stern warnings during the debrief, when half of my class was already gone.

i'm so tired.

second day of school. we had to take an amplitude test or whatever shit is that to see if we qualify for cla. i had to pass it because i've thought through what i want to take and i doubt i'll want to struggle with maths anymore. the stupidest thing in this school is having to take a test if you want to take cla. as if it isn't worse enough, a chinese test just deters people from liking chinese any further. those who attended the test must be those who truly likes chinese. marks can't determine a person's altitude. interest is what that really keeps people learning. if that person really likes chinese, i don't think the school should stop him/her from taking up the subject. there're really very few people taking the subject.

jan and i had combed the whole chinatown for sa school uniform yesterday but to no avail. with a bit of luck, i'd gotten my uniform at teck whye there today. mum told me that one of the person working there is one of my relatives. o.O i slept on the bus and banged my head against the back of the seat. =S

i've gotten a mp3. a white zen micro from creative. it's cool with a blue back-light. the vertical touch pad, though convenient, proves too sensitive for my clumsy fingers. however, the white wires, remote control and earphones seem elegant and peaceful. a nice colour as a whole set.

victoria gave us a website. it's http://comic.yam.com/comiclist.php?ClassId=adult&AreaId=aniegg. anyone who understands chinese and hokkien can go in to look. there're lots of weird cartoons which provides hilarious jokes. though some are lame and some not understandable, the others are funny. have fun and relax! =D

girls

a meeting with jane, yan and chuz. the singing session went quite smoothly. it's still good to meet up with old friends once in a while.

after that, i went for a feast with my sis at sakae sushi. she couldn't eat after 2 hours and we had to leave. it's a pity there wasn't any mochi left. we ate the buffet because of the dessert. they should at least refund us a bit instead of substituting it as watermelon. we can't possibly have 4 plates of watermelon each. we'll be crazy if we do that.

Almost Here

Brian:Did I hear you right?
Cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

Delta:But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears'cause your only almost here

Brian:I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Brian & Delta:Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered, now it hurts
Brian:Oh, haven't I always loved you?

Delta:But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

Brian & Delta:Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered, now it hurts
Brian:Haven't I always loved you?

Delta:But when I need you
You're almost here
Brian:Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you

Delta:And when I hold you
You're almost here
Brian:Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted

Brian & Delta:And now I'm with you
I'm close to tears
Brian:Cause I know I'm almost here

Brian & Delta:Only almost here

it's my cousin's birthday, so my aunt brought us all out to have lunch with her. after that, we went to the neoprint shop and spent the whole afternoon there. everybody forked out some money and kept taking photos. it's so fun! i guess we had taken all the machines there. =) it's so fun!

i've gotten my estee lauder 7-coloured perfume bottle. the name of the perfume is "beyond paradise". this perfume doesn't smell as nice as c.k.'s, but the bottle is so captivating.

on our way to orchard, i nearly died of laughter on the mrt. fleur was sing so loudly that the people in the entire train cabin were practically staring at her. chuz warned her and stopped the discman, but fleur got irritated and continued singing. xx, chuz and i were laughing like crazy and fleur gave us a disgusted look and demanded us to stop laughing at her. there's this passenger seated in front of her who actually placed his newpaper down and stared at her with his eyeballs nearly poking out. fleur kept thinking she was singing very softly. she insisted that she couldn't hear, thus, others couldn't hear either. the seoul garden trip today was memorable. we had a great fun teasing fleur.

there's an additional member to my family. my mum had bought another goldfish which is all puffed up to accompany the other. comparing the two fishes, they look really different. the fish which we have all along looks so slim. the new member is orangey and looks like a puffer fish all puffed up. the head is unproportionally small and the tail nearly missing. it's cute. >.<

my mum washed the fish bowl just now. she fed the fishes panadol and i wonder if they'll suffer from an overdosage. but the fishes seem better after that. i checked up a website in the morning, and found out that guppies are omnivores. but do they eat goldfishes??

everybody keeps asking me where they should go. as if i would know and even i really give them advice, will they heed my advice? why mourn so much? just trust your intuition. why can't some people be more realistic? they can't get into their dream jcs and there're lots of choices for them, but they just don't want to degrade themselves to go into a 'what-is-perceived-lousier' jc. then they keep telling me that they don't know where to go because they can't get into the jc that they wanted!

and my sis's goldfishes are wounded. it seemed that it's the guppy that i brought back from the carnival which inflicted the wounds on them. my sis said she saw my guppy poking at the goldfishes. my mum separated the guppy and the goldfishes. they suspected my guppy bit the goldfishes. the fishes had red patches on their scales and looked swollen. the one with a longer and more beautiful tail look more pathetic. ouch. that's gross. they kept blaming me for bring home a "fish from the drain".

at night, mum brought my sis and i to westmall. i had gotten a new fone, 7260. i like 3120 but mum said dat 7260's cheaper and newer so she suggested that i buy that instead. 3120 is an unique phone. i like it. but both phones are alright with me. =)

i went to school today to discover that only 4 people had turned up. i had no lesson so i just sat in the canteen from 8 to 8.30am before i decided to get out. while i was going out, i saw a teacher and he actually said goodbye to me. o.O

then i met mel they all at westmall for a buffet lunch-cum-dinner. we chatted and time goes faster when one's doesn't think about sad stuffs. i enjoyed their company. =)